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Thank you all for the kind wishes and the thoughtful prayers. Dakotah was telling me all of the surpot you gave to him and me these past 11 days as I was away in the hospital. Thank you all from the deepest parts of my soul and heart. I only wish health happines and love in everyones life. You are all amazing friends and family to Dakotah and I. Thank you so much. You are the best and amazing.
Above all I want to thank the love of my life my husband my beautiful Dakotah. He was there pushing me when I was scared. He was the one following me holding me and suporting me to this hard journy all this year especialy the past week. Every day he would talk to me helping me forget the pain and all the sick emotions of the heavy meds. He would joke and laugh and help me relax thinking of calming things. He would pul me up when I was falling down drying the silent tears from my cheeks telling me " I am so proud of you baby. You made it. You are trully a fighter. I admire you so" He would stay up all night wile I was looking at the ceiling countng the slow minutes till the days would pass slowly till the day the doctors told me I could go home. He would help me forget the pain and spent all day with me not sleeping at all watching movies with me and making future plans for our lifes and he would make me smile and warm my heart with more love if its even possible as my heart already explode in so much love for him.
What many dont know about Dakotah was that he was by my side wile he was ill himself and in pain. No matter how many times I would beg him to go and sleep to be strong he would refuse and tell me that is no use to try to change his stubborn mind.
Dakotah. Sean. My love. You say you are proud of me and you admire me but I admire you more because you fight so hard in your life and so long and still you are strong smiling and helpful. You say I care for others first and then for myself even if I am in pain but angel you do the same too. We both had hard roads in our lifes and we both fight and still fighting so much but I cant tell you how proud I am for you. How blessed I am for having you in my life. How unique I feel for having your love. You hold me in your hands and you heal me and make me fly in heavens with your love.
My beautiful man I love you so deep that words cant explaine it even if I could try. I fall deeply and deeply in love every day. Stronger and deeper every second. I love you Sean. You gave me the world since your first smile. I will be by your side one each step we will take for all of our lifes. My one and only. My husband. My soulmate.
For more updates about my health the surgery even big and tiring went very good. The surgeons are so happy with the development and with the fast healing. I am in pain yes. Every day and every second. And is frustrating that I ant find a spot to rest but nothing matter wile I am home after 11 days with my family and my loved one. In 10 days we will cut the stiches and do a ne ct scan in a month or so but what matter is to alays be positive. No matter what life brings you and how hard world is do not give up. Do not wish for death. Life is so beautiful an so precious. It angers me when I read peole that they wish they were dead because they are bored or because they broke up. Open up your eyes and look around you. People fight to get well and live and wile you have a healthy life you wish for it to end. I will not stop fighting for mine because even though I was diagnosed with cancer for 2 time in my life and that as my third surgery. Even though I lost my father and granny a year ago I will NEVER stop fighting for y future. Never. So to all outside. Open your eyes and fight. We are fighters. We can do it
If there were every two people who belong together and are a perfect match, it is you and me. We both have had health issue but yours are so much deeper, dangerous, serious then mine. Yet there is that empathy there we both hold. Right after you and I started talking and joking around with each other and yes, those little flirtations coming from us both in the beginning You broke the news to me of your cancer. You shared it all how this was your 2nd go around. You were open and honest. You felt I needed to know what came with you. I did not run away. How could I. Here is this brave, amazing, beautiful woman, truly beauty inside and out, the most beautiful soul I have every met in my life. Here was this woman I had a instant connection with. Here was this women I could not get enough of. Here was this bright, loving woman and she wanted ME. This Injun with a past that was less them stealler. This Injun riddled with flaws and as many holes as Swiss cheese. Here was the Injun who had a disability that he kept private. And YOU wanted ME. I clearly have questioned Creator in his thinking that he would place this Perfect match to me woman in my life knowing full well or thinking he made a mistake because this woman deserved SO much of a better man then I could ever be and rather he made a mistake or not he seemed to not be taken you away from me. Lo's did I become the Luckiest Damn Cree on the face of this planet. So yeah, I am the lucky one in all this. Lily, I know 100% you clearly have no clue just how fantastic of a woman you are. You have no ego at all and just are a loving kind honorable female warrior fighting her way though 2 bouts of cancer and smiling all though it and caring so deeply for others and all your friends and family never ever putting your needs first at all. It's just not in you to even for a day put yourself first.... People here a woman fighting cancer whom did not want her friends to know who would have given her the support all cancer patients desperately need because she did not want to worry them. Just think about that for a moment. This is how fucking amazing Lily is. When Lily makes a friend of you she commits that she will always be there for you above and beyond no matter what. All of the people who she calls friends a damn lucky group to have her in there lives and they all aware of that. She loves you all so much and you each mean the world to her. Lily would not only give you the shirt off her back she give up a day in her life for her friends. And yes we all have our own pains, our own baggage as we try to make it though day by day in this fucked up world and I never want to discount or make light of anyone's pains But stop for moment when you say You hate your life and wish you just die already, and I read tons and tons of journals people posting that and here is a woman fighting for her life who only just wants to LIVE and not die. All the chemo operations and this one ... well she was in the operating room hours upon hours to remove cancer from her lung and came out having to live 11 days with painful tubes and drainage tubes all over her body. And when she was able to talk to me it came little by little... how is so and so... (naming this friend or that friend) Payne...just -all- and everyone of you who loves Lily like I do, she ask how YOU were doing. I think Creator gave certain people this horrible disease on purpose so they could stand and be an explain to us ALL on how to fucking appericate life even if for just a moment. Like Lily they are warriors in the TRUEST sense. I can not say enough here I just can't.
Lily I love you to Pluto and back and Baby, my wife... We GOT this.....
Not happening mister. You are so stuck with me. For now ad all eternity. You are perfect. You are amazinng. You are my everything. I love you my husband
Soulmates is what you two are.....and as an evil friend, I shall do my best to corrupt you both and lead you astray so as to turn this diabetic sweetness into a hedonistic party!!! Maybe I should send drinks and strippers to D's house....weddings need to have a good stag do before hand and since I am not sure if he had one, I shall have to send the sins his way haha >:)
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Dakotah
14:18 Jun 23 2017
If there were every two people who belong together and are a perfect match, it is you and me. We both have had health issue but yours are so much deeper, dangerous, serious then mine. Yet there is that empathy there we both hold. Right after you and I started talking and joking around with each other and yes, those little flirtations coming from us both in the beginning You broke the news to me of your cancer. You shared it all how this was your 2nd go around. You were open and honest. You felt I needed to know what came with you. I did not run away. How could I. Here is this brave, amazing, beautiful woman, truly beauty inside and out, the most beautiful soul I have every met in my life. Here was this woman I had a instant connection with. Here was this women I could not get enough of. Here was this bright, loving woman and she wanted ME. This Injun with a past that was less them stealler. This Injun riddled with flaws and as many holes as Swiss cheese. Here was the Injun who had a disability that he kept private. And YOU wanted ME. I clearly have questioned Creator in his thinking that he would place this Perfect match to me woman in my life knowing full well or thinking he made a mistake because this woman deserved SO much of a better man then I could ever be and rather he made a mistake or not he seemed to not be taken you away from me. Lo's did I become the Luckiest Damn Cree on the face of this planet. So yeah, I am the lucky one in all this. Lily, I know 100% you clearly have no clue just how fantastic of a woman you are. You have no ego at all and just are a loving kind honorable female warrior fighting her way though 2 bouts of cancer and smiling all though it and caring so deeply for others and all your friends and family never ever putting your needs first at all. It's just not in you to even for a day put yourself first.... People here a woman fighting cancer whom did not want her friends to know who would have given her the support all cancer patients desperately need because she did not want to worry them. Just think about that for a moment. This is how fucking amazing Lily is. When Lily makes a friend of you she commits that she will always be there for you above and beyond no matter what. All of the people who she calls friends a damn lucky group to have her in there lives and they all aware of that. She loves you all so much and you each mean the world to her. Lily would not only give you the shirt off her back she give up a day in her life for her friends. And yes we all have our own pains, our own baggage as we try to make it though day by day in this fucked up world and I never want to discount or make light of anyone's pains But stop for moment when you say You hate your life and wish you just die already, and I read tons and tons of journals people posting that and here is a woman fighting for her life who only just wants to LIVE and not die. All the chemo operations and this one ... well she was in the operating room hours upon hours to remove cancer from her lung and came out having to live 11 days with painful tubes and drainage tubes all over her body. And when she was able to talk to me it came little by little... how is so and so... (naming this friend or that friend) Payne...just -all- and everyone of you who loves Lily like I do, she ask how YOU were doing. I think Creator gave certain people this horrible disease on purpose so they could stand and be an explain to us ALL on how to fucking appericate life even if for just a moment. Like Lily they are warriors in the TRUEST sense. I can not say enough here I just can't.
Lily I love you to Pluto and back and Baby, my wife... We GOT this.....
Dakotah
14:22 Jun 23 2017
explain s suppose to be example
Dakotah
14:26 Jun 23 2017
Have to add this too, I keep waiting for Creator to email me 'hey Sean sorry you know I fucked up and Lily is way too good for you bro.'
Liliancat
14:29 Jun 23 2017
Not happening mister. You are so stuck with me. For now ad all eternity. You are perfect. You are amazinng. You are my everything. I love you my husband
xRobin3x
15:28 Jun 23 2017
I am glad your home. hugs ya
MordrakusxMortalitas
17:31 Jun 23 2017
Soulmates is what you two are.....and as an evil friend, I shall do my best to corrupt you both and lead you astray so as to turn this diabetic sweetness into a hedonistic party!!! Maybe I should send drinks and strippers to D's house....weddings need to have a good stag do before hand and since I am not sure if he had one, I shall have to send the sins his way haha >:)
FeverDreams
13:57 Jun 24 2017
Welcome back! Wishing you both ... all the health and happiness in the world. muaks!
Liliancat
09:02 Jun 25 2017
Thank you everything!! Its so relaxful and amazing to be back home!! Even laying on my bed I am happy!! Hugs